Hosoi Koe

Maybe...

2008-01-12T16:59:50Z

I just needed some good news to cheer me up. I have been really upset these days but I know exactly the reasons for this.

Maybe I just ignored people that always liked and still liking me to meet more and more people, and after having about 25 people to like, I saw that I can't give the same attention for all of them. I decided "Oh, lets talk with z, y, w, x and g" but now I see this was the worst decision. Not that all moments were bad. I've learned a lot with all the hardships we had but... Isn't this a way of growing up in mind?
Sometimes hard things need to be heard and I'm happy someone told all of them to me. I finally woke up and tried to re-choose those people. Instead of those I decided, I am dedicating myself to old friends I forgot. In the first night of this decision, I saw it was the best decision I've ever taken. I was crying first but in few minutes I was laughting so hard that I couldn't believe. It was a good night and we had fun talking until 5 am when I started feeling sick and went to bed.

The event is coming soon so this is a good time to meet new people. Maybe if I transform myself in a easy going person, things will get better. This event now is this exactly point for me. Being another person to be goof with myself. The cosplay is helping me on this same point. Cosplaying a band that has those old school VK characteristics, in a anime event, calls much more attention than only cosplaying Kanoma. For sure I didn't wanted to change Kanoma to Satoshi, and I really wanted to do both but it's impossible because of the hair. I don't car at all. This extra calling of attention on the event will force me to be a easy going person, smiling more, having good actions to people. I know the world isn't like this with good people, but I believe so much that everyone should do their part to a better world. Yeah, sometimes I just feel like "I want a nobel prize" or something like that XD

Things that made me smile today: Yugioh cards that my friend drew (with some idiot things so I could laugh at it), my book getting even more interesting than before, studying for university.
Good news of today: Siva new stuff, NoGod full album, Metis Gretel stuff on CDJapan, one more of Kanoma's writting and two of his poem from his poem book, translation for Humiliate me more Darlin' and Persona (I really love these songs), Towa's pictures of him and Velo (Yeah, only Saburou isn't cute on Moran XDDD).

And... CONGRATULATIONS SEPHIE AND NIKKI! I'm really happy to know you finally got more money from your job!
Girls, can I try to go to Japan with you? 8DD I really really want to meet EREMIA and you two are giving me some hopes that I can do it! and the end of the year is a good time to travel, hu? I've been trying to go away of this familly comemoration anyway. I don't mind about ignoring my trip to the US if my parents allow me traveling to Japan with you <3 But I'll think on this better and after we can talk about it, right? <3

0_karura @ 2007-12-24T13:44:00

2007-12-24T16:25:28Z

Merry Christmas to all my dear friends!

Well... here it is 14:22 and we are preparing the food to the big dinner with all my family...

I'm happy because I want so much to go to my cousin's place tonight and ride my bike with them! It will be funny for sure.

Sephie, Nikki and Fernanda: I'm sorry, your letters and fanfic (for Mizu) are late because I hadn't time to do them all but I'll write everything when things get easier here n_n~

Love you all <3~~

0_karura @ 2007-12-19T14:51:00

2007-12-19T16:52:55Z

Step One

- Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two
- Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:
- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

Thinking of 10 things is hard...

01. My Phantom Rose, Satoshi \(*-*)/
02. Satoshi's cosplay
03. New bass 8D
04. Photosets (EREMIA, Metis Gretel... 8D)
05. Letters, post cards or cards
06. Pictures
07. Flowers
08. Cat (I really want a cat)
09. Albuns/Singles/DVDs/everything that make sounds and I like
10. Meet EREMIA

8D red_darkness@hotmail.co.jp

Sephie, I robbed this from your LJ, dear! XD

This is for Nikki

2007-12-03T13:25:47Z

Will you hate me because of this?XDDD
I saw your LJ post and felt unconfortable about it... will you hate me if I say that I'm used to "Mizarii"?

Sorry, I know the correct is Misery but when my friend sent me Metis Gretel stuff, she wrote Mizarii so my mind took this... I can't remember 'Misery' everytime.. XDDDD just some few times I say Misery instead of Mizarii XDDD

yeah, I know this is really stupid but I'm worried now XD

Sorry big sister!

0_karura @ 2007-11-30T16:24:00

2007-11-30T18:24:42Z

My LJ is really strange this days... I can't use it correctly and I'm worried about what should have happened to my pc. my homepage stopped in the day of 27th when the power went off... After that, my pc was strange and wasn't turning on again, but my father put it to work. Now, this...
I'm really worried, because at my father's laptop is everything ok.

Sephie, Nikki! I'll go to the US on an exchange program! My school gave it to me because I'm the best student there n_n It's amazing, isn't it?!

Tomorrow is no exam. YAY XD

0_karura @ 2007-11-29T13:19:00

2007-11-29T15:20:57Z

Today I had math exam.. It was easy but I was a little nervous, so I'm afraid about any mistake I did...

Tomorrow it will be literature (YEAH! Ò_Ó) and geography!

Go go geography! *Studying*

Edit: It's 17:16 pm and I didn't study NOTHING XDDD and don't really want to... I have a headache =__=

0_karura @ 2007-11-25T21:47:00

2007-11-25T23:52:59Z

I have a big problem and I don't know exactly what it is about.
Today when my family was returning from a party, my mother started talking to me and she said stuff like 'I hope you don't have lesbian or gay friends'. At first I was 'ok, this is normal' but then she said that she saw something in my things that made her worry about it. Now I wonder what the hell was it, because it can be two or more things. I really think she realized I'm bi. And she told me that I won't sleep at my friend's house anymore because of this thing. I want to run away from here right now, something like go to school tomorrow and never return... I want to cry too, I'm really worried and... desperate.

0_karura @ 2007-11-20T13:43:00

2007-11-20T15:43:26Z

I like reading Sephie's and Nikki's meme XD they are great! XD

0_karura @ 2007-11-19T22:53:00

2007-11-20T00:54:34Z

6,75 in chemistry all by myself XD
now, I just need some grade in math and... third and last year wait for me!

0_karura @ 2007-11-18T11:17:00

2007-11-18T13:18:42Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEPHIE! <3<3<3

Sorry, I really can't write something better herer because I'm really sleepy XDDD but soon I'll send your letter so I'll put things there n_n

I love you <3

0_karura @ 2007-11-17T18:25:00

2007-11-17T20:36:43Z

Today I was thinking... It were several days I'm posting here in my LiveJournal regullary and I feel good about it. I think this was exactly what I always needed to express things that are inside me.

Nikki's letter finally reached home and I smiled so much while reading it XDDD ah, thank you for your little photos! I'll keep one in my purse n_n

Fernanda asked me if I preffer Satoshikko or Erekko... And I choose Erekko because I don't want to ignore any of them XDDD but now I'm curious about what she will give me for christmas, and I really didn't thought in anything to buy her!

I really want a cat.

0_karura @ 2007-11-16T15:02:00

2007-11-16T17:08:20Z

Go Go Burajiru... (8)

I miss Charlotte here, is so sad to imagine them in the plane with that huge amount of alcohol we bought them... >XD They will be really drunk when they arrive Japan.

Yesterday was perfect. I hugged To-ya, almost fell on him (and after that I almost fell in Mitsu because of their things in the middle of the line), our glasses almost fell too because of this fact XD And his perfume was in my T-shirt, so I slept with it i.i' I had a dream with them too, and I woke up really happy.

I'll keep this in my memory forever...

Thank you Charlotte!

ps: now I have autographs! XDDD

0_karura @ 2007-11-13T23:38:00

2007-11-14T01:43:04Z

This night I had a dream with Kanoma. I only remembered to post it now!

The new band was here in Brazil doing a live just like Charlotte and there was the autograph time. I was the first one to be there, and when I entered the room, Kanoma was alone because the others were in the bathroom [everyone in the bathroom... xD] and asked me to came in. I entered and I was holding an tulip bouquet, and I gave it to him. So he looked at it and for me and asked why I was giving him those flowers, and I said 'chuu rippu'... And we kissed *blushes*
The rest of the dream was really sweet, and when I woke up I was smilling too much! XD I'm so silly...

I think this happened because I was talking to Sephie and I said this chuu rippu Kanoma said once in a key-word interview. It was strange and good at the same time!

Later.

0_karura @ 2007-11-13T21:09:00

2007-11-13T23:14:57Z

I realized that Charlotte makes me happy...
When I listen to it, I feel more confortable about things in my life, and remember those good moments with people I really love. Is this the essence of life?

Yesterday I received from Sephie the gifts. It was a small letter, one of EREMIA's photoset and the most incredible thing I've ever seen in my life: Fatima's signature.
Thank you so much, dear! I love you!

0_karura @ 2007-11-11T12:54:00

2007-11-11T16:41:52Z

It was the most perfect day in my life. Not that perfect because some lots of things went wrong and I cryed about it, but like my friend said me: I have to remember that small and good things that made me smile.
Now I gonna tell you how was...

The songlist was:

Diamond Busaiku (Diamond Burajiru XDDD and two times)
Yokohama Love Story
Shall We Dance
Picnic
Neko Ninarinai
Kanpaku Sengen
XXXX
Samurai
GOING mae he (I think xD)

My head is aching so much so there is some songs missing and this is not the correct way they played, but I remember that it was these songs. All of them had furi, and everybody had lots of fun while doing them, even in that small and crowded place. Everything went right, but some friends were feeling sick, because we didn't eat the hole day. The girls arrived early in the morning (about 5:30~6:00 am) and got Charlotte's signature. I didn't get none because I had to go to school... And they didn't get anything to me. I was really sad with this and cryed a lot, and I can say that this was the reason I didn't stay with them during the live. I really wanted to be far from them, because I envy them and was really disappointed too. But even this had a "grand finale".
Ree and Morango was the first 2 people that arrived the signature building, so Charlotte invited them to have lunch so they went to the 5th floor of the building (the signatures was in 4th) to wait for the band. Then Morango called me and asked me to go to the 5th floor and so I did. I sat in the ground with my back in the elevator's direction, and I was crying with the girls because I was sad (yes, again the signatures). When I was feeling better, the elevator opened without our expection, and I turned to see who it is. Yes...

... IT WAS CHARLOTTE!
Kazuno went out the elevator doing some funny sounds with his mouth, and this made me smile for the first time in a while. That moment was the most fantastic thing that ever happened in my life, because I could never imagine I would met them in only a step of distance. It was really good. I was so paralized that I only could stood up and smiled to them, but when To-ya went out, I put my hands in front of my mouth and screamed. He looked at me and smiled in that cute way he always does. I started to cry in that same moment and all of them looked a little touched and worried, but the staff was saying them to enter one room to change clothing and go have lunch. I was there, smiling and crying at the same time, and I really couldn't believe they was there. Ah! And when Ruka was going to went out the elevator, he almost stumbled me xD And I stood up so fast that moment that I hurt my knee (there is a huge red mark on it).
After that, I started believing in miracle. Yes... That was my miracle. My wonderful miracle.

I went to the hotel with Morango and Ree and 13:30 we was back to Okinawa, where there was the line to enter the place to the live. Me and my friends had lots of fun in the line, because we did jokes all the time to make it pass faster XD We sang childish songs, we sang Diamond Busaiku some times too... It was a great moment. It rainned several times and that was funny too, because everyone started screaming "OH GOD, IT'S RAINNING! MY HAIR WILL LOOK TERRIBLE!" and everybody was under 4 umbrella XD

About 16:30 they openned the doors and everybody was so excited to enter there and look to Charlotte for the first time in Brazil. They were the first Visual Kei band here, and this was really important to all of them. Even them was touched by it! To-ya cried on stage when it was near the end.

Well, returning to the start of the live. Things were a little late and we had to wait for them for about 40 minutes and that moment I met some girls and we started chating and making fun of Yamato (the organization of the live XD) about those 40 minutes late. Kayomi went to the little store for me and brought me my Charlotte's official T-shirt (it is red and there is a devilish bear XDDD and the other writings are all in black, like the bear). When she arrived and said "There was only that red T-shirt in your size" I couldn't stop smiling. That was exactly the T-shirt Charlotte was wearing when I met them at the building elevator... And at the same moment, I went to the bathroom and changed my blouse to the T-shirt. I was the only one in the crowd that has and was wearing the official T-shirt.

The live started with a different Diamond Busaiku, and everybody screamed and jumped a lot! Than we was really surprised because Kazuno started yelling "Go Go BURAJIRU" and we was really happy with it. Our song was Diamond Burajiru xDDDD The live was excelent... Everything was perfect, but To-ya had some problems with his guitar. I don't know exaclty what happened because he was at the opposite side I was (he was on the right of the left of the stage and I was on the right, almost in the middle). Kazuno said in japanese that it would take some time and started chating with us using the translator. Before that, he tried talking in portuguese and everybody screamed "KAWAII" and stuff like that XD
like I said before, every song had a furi, and everybody was doing it, so it was a great thing to see. And in Yokohama Love Story, everybody made hands hearts and Kazuno did it while holding the microphone. I almost cried there, but I didn't because I was really happy and that moment was entering my chest in a incredible way that I can't explain.
I think this made every one be touched, and so there was lot of lovely things we were doing to them. When a song was finishing, or the crowd was a little in silence, I screamed To-ya in such way I think I would never do XDDDD and I jumped to, so he looked at me and I did that hands heart. He smiled and did one for me too <3
In a point of the live, I sent a kiss to Mitsu (I kissed my hands and 'dropped' it for him) and he sent one for me too.
I felt so important... Special for them both.

When it all ended, the organization was on stage and the translator too, and the man said "They are part of Brazil's Visual Kei history, and now you're too! So lets take a memorial picture of this great moment!!". Another man entered the stage with a Brazilian flag and Charlotte crouched in front of the stage. Everybody made "V" with fingers for the first picture. The second, everybody made hearts. The third, I did heart and the others were doing different things, but it was special anyway. The band come near the end of the stage and started showing their faces, and all of them had a Brazil's flag in their faces, and they were shining! We felt touched again.

After the live 'ended', we started screaming "Sharuro" again, and they returned and played Diamond Burajiru one more time, and that was the end of that perfect live. Perfect day...

My body is all in pain XDDD I can't even walk! Neighter talk XD

Thank you so much, Charlotte! It was the best thing I ever saw or heard or.. I don't know, it was perfect and that's all!

0_karura @ 2007-11-09T14:56:00

2007-11-09T16:57:01Z

FUCK >_< I _REALLY_ want to see Satoshi and shout this 'I love you' that is inside my chest...

0_karura @ 2007-11-06T01:01:00

2007-11-06T03:01:50Z

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Today

2007-11-05T20:08:06Z

I can say that I miss Fatima too much.

Dear God, bring Kanoma back. Thank you.

0_karura @ 2007-11-05T14:47:00

2007-11-05T16:49:38Z

...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

I feel better now (L)

0_karura @ 2007-11-04T22:19:00

2007-11-05T00:22:24Z

I did a fanfic to a special! *-* I'm really excited to it, because I'll "work" with girls I don't met for a long time! n_n the pairing is Kanoma and... thoughts? XDD the story: is a songfic based on Muchi na Inochi he translation from the site Nakigoe, and I translated it into portuguese. Kanoma was remembering his relationship with Kamijo and thinking why everything ended that way n_n I liked it but I think the developing could be better, because I was a little late to finish it.
when the special ends, I can translate it to english and post for those who want to read

0_karura @ 2007-11-04T19:19:00

2007-11-04T21:19:32Z

YAAAAY! I CAN DO A CUT S2

0_karura @ 2007-11-04T19:11:00

2007-11-04T21:12:32Z

Today, I'm learning how to make my LJ beautiful XDDDD *silly*

... is this correct?

... ignore this >XDDD

Sephie, do you hate me?!

2007-11-03T19:38:16Z

this is unfair u___u I want your photosets XD and that EREMIA's flyer XDDDD

Today I bought Charlotte's ticket *-* It's in 7 days... XD

Today's miracle:
http://blog.livedoor.jp/eremia_shigure/
Shigure DOES exist... XD

Today's plan:
Meet friends in Japan and teach them EREMIA is a ticket to heaven, so if they go to EREMIA's live, they will rest in the paradise when they die...

0_karura @ 2007-10-23T13:57:00

2007-10-22T16:03:49Z

I hate being in love

but...

I love being in love with him

0_karura @ 2007-10-21T13:51:00

2007-10-21T14:58:32Z

Fernanda, you're an idiot XDDD

you know this is important to me u.u and FUCK THIS GUY *O* I want him to die A_A

ok, I'm yelling here because of those things I told you when I called you XD

but... fuck ò_O you're important for me too, and we STILL are friends <3 you'll have to support me forever A_A XD

... Emoticons's combo <3

~~Hosoi Koe~~